October 2016

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The Real Reason I Wear Makeup.

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In the second floor spare bedroom of the house where I grew up, I finagle my way onto the top of one of my mother’s fragile antique dressers, assuming a cross-legged, Indian style position in front of the mirror that hangs at eye level before me. With heaps of mid day sunlight careening through the room’s two square shaped windows, I brace myself for what’s bound to be a grisly sight, a reflection that rivals only that of Quasimodo’s.

I’m fifteen years old and I despise myself. But what’s more is that I can’t wrap my head around the present state of my physical appearance. Making a no holds barred dermatological assessment of my face, I ask aloud, rhetorically, and as if it’s the single most baffling phenomenon in the universe, “What the fuck? I have the skin of a ninety year old woman.”

As an involuntary member of the pale skin/dark hair club, there’s a reason why I’m categorized as a prime candidate for laser hair removal. Not only do I detect traces of a male mustache developing across my upper lip, but my friend, Lindsey, points out the fact that I have an obvious unibrow emerging, as well. Pale skin, freckles, pimples and female facial hair just aren’t features that equate to constructive and/or particularly healthy encounters with the mirror.

With my sweet sixteen party only a couple of weeks away, I walk around with a plastic Ziploc bag that contains a couple of newly acquired cosmetic purchases — items that the saleswoman at my local Clinique counter suggested that I pick up for the event. A makeup virgin, I have little to no faith that the products will do much of anything, except perhaps, exacerbate the pre-existing flaws that I’ve already come to equate with my personal identity.

That said, something finally prompts me to give them a try, and I commence my first ever concealer application sitting there on top of the antique dresser with the sunlight illuminating my face.

Upon smoothing out the initial coat, I’m surprised to discover that I  like the way that I look; so, with a heavier and more confident hand, I continue to apply more. And then, I go to town with the blush and the bronzer, as well. Using only these four products (at fifteen, I wasn’t permitted to wear much in the way of eye makeup – the idea wasn’t to transform me into a Shah of Sunset just yet), I arrive at the conclusion that, despite my rhetorical question to God and the universe about why I, alone, was cursed with the physical appearance of a Disney monster, I might only require the assistance of a Tweezer and a bottle of foundation to look good.

At fifteen, I’m genuinely awestruck by the idea that I could be pretty. Because, gone are the days of feeling even remotely comfortable in my own skin; they’ve been replaced with a lingering, low hanging cloud of generalized inadequacy that’s coupled with excessive self-loathing and paralyzing social anxiety. But here in the mirror, with this makeup on, I feel like the best version of myself.

Since that day, I’ve cultivated a great passion for the beauty industry as a whole. Throughout the past thirteen years, I’ve gone through hundreds of hours of “How-To” videos on YouTube, worked with some of the most coveted professionals in the business, watched my mug appear on national television (during my time as a reporter), and then transitioned into the blogosphere, which is another public forum where…I…post photos of myself on the internet for the world at large to see.

Having a reliable beauty routine enables me to feel like the best version of myself; I’m not ashamed to say that. When I look good, I feel good. Almost instantly, I find myself becoming more confident and upbeat.

I even carry myself differently.

And, I’ve come to realize that, in varying degrees, the same is true of most women. Who doesn’t enjoy feeling like the best version of herself?

But here’s the thing: despite what I’ve learned about investing in my exterior shell, it is, in fact, just that – a shell. No amount of contouring or beach waving or spray tanning could ultimately teach me how to love myself. That’s a topic for another post. Still, a major part of the reason why I chose to start a blog is because I’ve seen, firsthand, the power that a couple of products – from a Clinique counter at a mall on Long Island, to boot – could have in changing the way that I walk through life.

And I want that for as many women as possible.

Longchamp x Vogue — Dream Collaborations in the Blogging World.

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It’s a relatively ordinary, if not blatantly mundane, late summer afternoon when I return home to my apartment and note the familiar ding of a new email that made its way into my inbox. It’s from my manager, and it states the following:

Hey Brooke, Great news: Longchamp and Vogue would love to move forward with you.

My hearts immediately starts break dancing in my chest, and I get the good buzz feels while reading the sentence over and over again to ensure that this is really happening. Because, when I launched NoteBrooke, I spent the first six months of the initiative fastidiously applying for “grown up” jobs. This was never something that I believed would lend itself to collaborating with any brands, let alone iconic French leather luxury lines like Longchamp

…in connection with Vogue.

When I get to the New York showroom to take a glimpse at some of the pulls for my upcoming Central Park based shoot (I know), I’m floored by all of the designs that Longchamp has to offer. Casually insinuating — wink wink — that I’d love to wear a few of the looks to New York Fashion Week, I’m immediately awestruck by the richness of the colors, the top-notch quality of the plush fabrics and the flattering fits of the pieces that I get to try on.

Like every other human being in the civilized world, I was already familiar with Longchamp’s cute bags (What else would a regular Elle Woods use to carry her books in?) and lux accessories, and I regularly passed their pristinely manicured storefronts on Newbury Street in Boston and on Madison Avenue in New York, but I wasn’t nearly as savvy about their super chic repertoire of Fall wonders.

The shoot takes place in several dreamy locations throughout Central Park, and I’m working alongside two of my good friends — Charlotte, from the Fashion Guitar, and Krystal, from This Time Tomorrow. We’re provided with a link to Longchamp’s Fall 2016 campaign video in advance, which, if you’re looking to be inspired, is right here for your viewing pleasure, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XMC6Zhzerw (!)

With the help of a chic little pedicab that takes us from location to location, we cruise around Central Park draped in individualized threads from the line, three peas in a Bethesda Terrace based pod. Naturally [hair flip, finger snap], I represent “fire,” per the campaign, so my outfit includes blazing shades of orange/red interspersed with deep chocolate browns.

In the midst of New York Fashion Week, hopping around Central Park with such an incredible team, is a welcome respite from the madness. Longchamp is a sophisticated, but still very wearable brand, and the shoot has me feeling as if I’ve escaped from New York City altogether and teleported to a town full of grand castles somewhere outside of a major metropolitan area in Europe. Think French Countryside circa 1775 vibes but with incredibly inspiring outfits thrown into the mix.

Fire + amazing brand + pedicab transportation + good friends + celebratory lunch at the Central Park Boat House = the best career choice of my life.